barbayat: (Khan Bad Hair day)
Khan Wallpaper

1600 x 1200 (same size as: 1280 x 960, 1152 x 864, 1024 x 768)
1680 x 1050 (same size as: 1920 x 1200, 1440 x 900, 1280 x 800)
1280 x 1024 (yes I still use that size)

Used one of my favourite quotes ;) font placement differs on individual sizes ...
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barbayat: (Khan Heart)
I thought I share a few of the fanfics I do enjoy. I admit I do not read every story, because I do not like Sherlock/STID crossovers, there are a few other stories I have avoided for personal reasons, that I might end up reading later on ...

Recommendations under the CUT )
barbayat: (Khan - You amuse me)
Can happily say that I am making progress with the story. Even though lately I have done more editing than actually write new scenes. I keep going back to chapters and re-read them realising that something is amiss or that I mentioned something already.

So I edit, make one occurrence just a passing mention or delete it all together if possible and then clarify that point at better junction in the story.

Introducing my second OC, since she is kind of important to the story, was also something I had a hard time with. Not that I am nervous about people going: OMG, Mary Sue - but because I had to think about how Khan would see her, as he is the POV. That was pretty fun though once I figured it out.

Speaking of POV, I figured that problem out as well. I am going to separate the story by arcs. While some themes will be carried over a main issue will be solved in each one. Giving it some conclusion. For the first story I will stick to Khan's POV - the second part will involve the Enterprise crew, so maybe then I go ahead and use multiple POVs.

Making full use of the series feature on A03, I will also indulge in writing a few gratuitous smut scenes. Who knows maybe I write a few one-shots about some OCs and other canons that relate to the story as well.

BTW, All there is on A03, and hanging out a lot in these two chat rooms: Chat 1 and Chat 2 so if you are looking for writing session join me or contact me and I might just join you ;)
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Teaser: Khan (Benedict Cumberbatch) from Star Trek into Darkness Khan (Benedict Cumberbatch) from Star Trek into Darkness

20 Icons featuring Benedict Cumberbatch's Star Trek Character under the cut )

And I got the weirdest crush, especially for scenes where Khan's hair is hanging in his face. *swoons*
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barbayat: (fanfiction matrix of the dead)
I Am A: Lawful Good Human Wizard/Sorcerer (2nd/2nd Level)
more under the cut )

Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

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barbayat: (Loki This usually works)
Okay, the movie is out now in the US - but just barely so I keep the spoilers under a cut.

This post basically summarizes my basic analysis and summary of the motives of Cumberbatch's character in my movie, who is the main character of my fanfic.

Note: I also composed this more cryptic summary of the fanfic (although looking at the character listed underneath might already do the spoiling.)

POST into darkness. (SPOILERS, duh!) They say let sleeping dragons lie but there is always someone who is not listening. Awaken into a situation even more vile than before, it remains to be seen who will triumph last. The Cardassian Spy who gambles for everything or the one that thinks he has nothing left to loose ... Not beta-read (looking for one)

Spoilers underneath don't go and look )
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barbayat: (fanfiction darkness within)
Lately we did not had that many writing sessions. I guess it is the season or something - but if anyone here also wishes to do more writing sessions, maybe we can find an evening or two this week?

Just let me know, except for tomorrow when I am going to rewatch Star Trek into Darkness, I should be available every evening (GMT)

So any takers?
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barbayat: (Loki This usually works)
I am going to see the movie again. I really like it. However, there is plenty of wrong in this one. Here I do make list, which I probably expand on later on ...

Star Trek into Darkness spoilers )
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barbayat: (fanfiction darkness within)
Okay, spoiler warnings apply - like major spoilers.

As you could probably gather from my previous post, I was rather skeptic about the movie but I was glad I went anyway. In fact, I found the movie so entertaining, I am wondering if I should go again while they still air the OT version here. BTW, wow the movie is not rated, not even FSK 6.

Oh, yeah and I started a fanfic ...

barbayat: (fanfiction nemesis)
I might go to see Star Trek Born into Darkness tonight.

Depends on whether I feel okay - and there is one other thing that makes me hesitate. According to Cumberbatch seems indeed to be playing Khan (the rumoured is gone). You know that possibility makes me feel somewhat less excited.

Maybe he is an awesome Khan, because frankly the original Khan was not that great a villain. I know people hailed him and the second film is one of the best according too many. Heh, I love "The Wrath of Kahn". But I always felt Kahn was just a stupid villain.

Recently watched Space Seed again. That guy is just a sexist pig. He is a primitive, single minded abusive asshat. He has no style, they say he is engineered to be stronger and smarter but I never saw any of that. His first attempt fails miserably, he is pretty much beaten by the goofy crew (sorry but Kirk and Co are often fun to watch but more bumbling than competent, every often so incompetent).

For some reason this historian has a crush on him. Because you know, women can get all the equality they want, they still long for an abusive ass to dominate and subjugate them. *rollseyes*

Never once we got an actual reason, except Kahn mentioning that his intellect kept those alive, that did not die, why he is such a good leader. But for all we know, all of the survivors were engineered "superhumans". Except that they were tribal, easy to impress and had not one original thought or purpose.

Khan was great in the role of the primitive single minded revenge seeker "Bah, Kirk, you stranded me and cost me my favourite property - I mean love of my life *cough*".

So if, Cumberbatch is indeed a Khan re-hash, I hope they just mean that in regard to being engineered and that we do see some superhuman qualities, like super strength or supersmartness at play. After all we had the single minded moron with a shiny weapon as the superstupid villain hell bent on revenge in the last movie.
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barbayat: (Loki This usually works)
Now, I have it confirmed: it is not the windows update that killed my windows but the updates for the anti-virus program I used. After every update from Avast my system would not boot anymore and I had to reinstall everything.

That is so tedious, I still have not reinstalled all programs - there are so many settings lost. It is just no fun.

Meh, I need to get some writing done ... I barely write anymore and I have fallen behind with my word goal ...
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barbayat: (MOTU E-Hugs)
Okay, I should not read the boards ... however, I am not sure if I sought out a regular fan board the tone would be much better.

summary of the events )

Get your shitty sexism out of my Grimm )

At least now that the spell is lifted, Renard is back to being his old self: smart, cool and more bad ass than Nick could ever be.
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barbayat: (Molly from Sherlock)
Honestly, I don't get it.

Yes, she has good reason to be angry with Harry (he is an idiot ... but considering how dumb she is, I would not trust her with info that would get her killed as well.)

But she is so much worse. Not to mention she is one of those fake!strong female characters.

She just masks her insecurities with fake toughness, she is a shitty cop, a shitty friend, she can't take advice from experts and she only listens how long it suits her ready to spring into action without knowing the rest. Martial arts skills do not make a strong character *grrr*

I am not sure if I even want to take on another book, the cases are sort of interesting but both Harry is such a dumb-ass and he never learns anything. He makes the same mistakes over and over again. The only time he gets something right is when his life is in immediate danger. His constant whining and self-loathing about things he was only half wrong about is grading.

Plus I hate conflicts that get only that much more difficult because characters do not think or share information.

I guess having semi-intelligent protagonists with issues high as dinosaur shit piles appeals to the masses.

To paraphrase from a saying my role-play character: Just once I would like to read about professionals. *sighs*
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barbayat: (fanfic bad becomes worse)
The title of the episode is "Legitimiate Rape".

So if you don't have a strong stomach, do not read this post. This episode makes me physically ill and being stupid enough to read a bit on the message board from made me even more sick.

I would like to warn again strongly - do not read any of this if you are triggered by our fucking sick rape-culture. Also, I swear a lot ...(#) because I genuinely want to insult rapists and rape apologists.

The gist of the episode )

People with high blood pressure should avoid message boards )

My almost post in regards to a bullshit argument )

A theory and the date rape scenario )

What makes this so fucked up )

Decent men do not worry about getting accused of rape )
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barbayat: (fanfic the taking)

Hard Target (1993)

A John Woo Action movie with Van Damme as the hero, the story focuses on the two bad guys played by Arnold Vosloo (Pik) and Lance Hendrisken (Emil)

Characters:Pik Van Cleaf, Emil Fouchon
Pairings:Pik Van Cleaf / Original Female Character


Pik ends up on a road trip with Sandrine Mosley, a soon 18-year old girl who may or may not be Fouchon's daugther. Although Pik is a professional, he is also a sadistic killer and his hostage intrigues him.

This is a rewrite of the same story I wrote 10 years ago. I always knew I needed to overhaul it and now I am doing it. It is becoming much more explicit. The word count is rising and that with about the same stuff happening as before. However, I do try to reflect more on why Sandrine acts the way she does by bringing up how her relationship with her father influenced her. I also made things a bit steamier, by including a few fantasies from Pik about her which go into non-con territory. I also want to make it clearer that she becomes attracted to Van Cleaf even though or maybe because he scares her.

Things that might turn a beta reader off:
  • awkward sentence structure
  • misuse of words (I am not a native speaker)
  • age difference (she is almost 18 and he is closer to 40)
  • Pik fantasizing about raping the OC (which I can leave out, I need a M version for anyway)
  • sexual tension often bordering on sexual assault
  • one count of definite sexual assault (clothes cutting, breast touching)
  • sex with dubious consent (not recommend for people triggered by sexual assault)
  • bondage and spanking
  • people being beaten up
  • people being shot
  • one count of torture (tied to a chair, beated up with fists)
  • long chapters
  • long story over 50k

I am just happy if I find anyone to work on the spelling and fix awkward phrases (or just tell me which sentences are really in need of fixing)
barbayat: (Loki This usually works)
As some of you might know, has this beta reader feature. Literally anyone can offer their services. However, about 80% of the listed betas haven't been to the side in years (at least from the profiles I looked at) and most of them can not properly label their entries.

I am looking for a beta for my Hard Target fanfic (which I wrote from 2001 to 2002) and I am rewriting it and I really really could use someone who does not mind the darker topic. So on top of the problem that I am the only beta listed for that movie, I need someone who would not mind reading explicit stuff (violence, dub-con and rape fantasies).

Which would be far less excruciating, if not for the fact, that most betas listed are inactive. The second problem is that while searching under the categories "All Movies" it also lists people just registered for individual stories, sometimes single fandoms. I only read Harry Potter, is not something I expect from a beta in the "All Movies" category. Fucking lazy coding, - no thanks.

To make things even more annoying, on top of all that, I find writers who object to (explicit) violence, smut or anything M while listed under the category K to M! Fuck that is it really that hard to list K-T or whatever is your limit?

I guess I end up posting the story un-beta-read and full of grammar mistakes. Not as if anyone cares to read it at any rate ....

I just wonder where did all the sadistic editors of my teenage years go to, who loved to beta-read about everything just for the fun of mocking my inability to write? I miss you guys! You were the best.
barbayat: (fanfiction matrix of the dead)
There was this awkward silence in the car which was finally broken by Agent Brown.

“Do you possess all our access codes?”

Two sun glass shielded gazes probed Gina Larson, a third one was occasionally eyeing her from the rear view mirror.

“No, I do not have any of your access codes. Just Johnson's.”

Saying his name almost made her cry again. Before they were transferred out of their human bodies into the Matrix, the main concern had been how much of their humanity would be lost. Right now, she wished their had been some loss. She had reasons to grief before but never like this.

She had read about heartache in novels but she never imagined that it would actually physically hurt. Gina did not even care any more that the agents saw her as she was now. She pulled Jones' Jacket closer around her and did her best to pull herself together.

“What were you and Agent Johnson doing in the hotel room?”

Brown said leaning closer while looking at her thigh and the welt that was low and forward enough to be seen. Hearing Smith sharply inhaling she had no doubt he was aware of what was going on.

“Use your imagination”, she shot back.

“I rather you don't”, Smith stated icily.

Clearly confused Brown took a moment to analyse the situation. Which included a search string about the use of hotel rooms, a list of scenarios and various other factors.

“You are having a intimate physical relationship with Agent Johnson.”

The agent said out loud, which was then followed up again by Jones.

“Judging by the fact that she has been whipped with precision few humans could achieve, I would assume they have been practising BDSM.”

“Enough”, Gina and Smith said simultaneously.

“My mistake, social protocol would deem it inappropriate to discuss your sexual preferences in these circumstances.”

“Social protocol? The whole concept is revolting enough to turn my stomach.”

Smith almost spat as he was uttering these words, making it no secret what he thought about this affair. However, Agent Brown was not willing to let matters rest.

“Might I inquire why you were keeping this a secret from us?”

“We kept it secret because he knew you would re-act like close minded, irrational bigots. That is why.”

Gina's anger was clearly directed at Agent Smith who was making it a point to keep an inch between her and him. Instead of re-acting to her tirade he turned his eyes towards the windows. Bigot was not insulting him, close mindedness was similarly not affecting him. The part where she referred to him as irrational was making him pause to analyse the situation.

When his analysis revealed that his revulsion of the situation could not be explained other than having an irrational bias, he searched for alternative reasons to justify his disgust of the situation.
barbayat: (Loki smiling)
I am actually making good progress across the board. It seems I have a good run with my rewrite for the Hard Target fanfic called "Beloved Target" (hmm I still need a better title) ....

I am not into chapter 5 and it would probably go faster if I did not literally had to rewrite everything. There are so many more things I need to add or change to make the characters actions more plausible. I also want to bring in more tension.

At the same time I am making progress with the Loki fanfic. Talked to my beta reader and decided to make it three stories. After all the idea was always consisting of three main arcs so I just separating them more officially. I am calling the first one "Enemy of my Enemy" and name the series Birthright.

Not sure what to call the second and third one yet.

But I am down to chapter 10 and I think the first story might amount to 18 chapters ... depends a bit on where I let it end exactly.

All in all, if you know someone who loves to correct grammar - send them my way. I don't mind harsh comments as long as I get rid of all the mistakes.

March 2014


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